Wednesday, August 27, 2008

For Sherman

for Beckett and Nauman

what i mean to say is i mean no,

that’s not what i mean to say

is i mean to say something “some-

thing, anything” the silence

is torture, i mean. what i mean

to say nothing at all, even something

said, i mean, can mean nothing

but what i mean to say, something

i meant to say, i mean, before

i was so rudely interrupted, i

mean to say what i mean to say

regardless of who is speaking.

i will interject, being derelict,

what i mean into this laborious

discourse, i mean i will labor

to say what i mean to say and i

will, i mean to say, say what

i mean until each ear hears what

i say i mean. what i mean to say

is i mean to say i love what i

mean, so to say, i love what i

mean to say, for instance, say

i mean to say what i mean to

say then once what i mean to

say is said only then can i say

what i mean by what i mean to say,

that is to say, i will say what

i mean about what i mean to say

when i say what i mean to say,

and then also when i say what

i mean about what i mean to say

and then say what that means.

i mean, i see a man or woman,

and i say, “say, that man or woman

may mean to say what i mean to say,”

but i’ve not yet heard that man

or woman express what they mean

to say to see whether it is similar

to or the same (in principle) as what

i mean to say and i say if we

are in agreement why not say what

we mean to say to one another. i mean

to say, who does not love to revel

in the agreement of saying and meaning

and saying, furthermore, what one means

to say. yet, if this very same man

or woman means to say something askance

of what i mean to say i mean, this

is another matter entirely. what i mean

to say is i will say what i mean

to say i mean until the man or woman

understands not only what i mean

to say but also adopts what i mean

and says what i mean to say before

i say what i mean myself, or failing

that, says what i mean to say simultaneously

with the thought of what i mean to say

unclouding itself cognitively because

what i mean to say is why spend time

saying what one means if another means

to say something dangerously contradictory

to what i mean to say. i mean, if what

i mean harbors any kind of value at all,

then certainly this value presents

a kind of universal and i will find

that what i mean to say connects me

with other mans or womans by the shared

principles of what we mean and say,

i mean it is not possible and possibly

not even conceivable that what i mean

to say is not what i mean because

if i mean to say it, it must mean

it is what i mean and what i mean

to say ought to be said in such a way

that what i mean to say is recognized

as saying what i mean to say in the doing

of the saying. say any man or woman

happens to hear the act of me saying

what i mean to say, i mean, this man

or woman should know what i mean

by and/or through the act of saying

what i mean to say and if the man

or woman do not know, it is perhaps

because they have never imagined,

i mean to say, something other

than what i mean to say. that is to say,

i have completed the extent of what

i mean to say to the fullest superscript

of my powers for saying what i mean

to say i mean. i have made the act

of saying what i mean to say so

incontrovertible from and interconnected

with the true meaning of what i mean

to say that any man's or woman's version

of what i mean to say that differs

from the true version of what i mean

to say or mean will most surely

be the fault of the man or woman who

has superimposed what he or she means

to say or means or says over, above,

beyond or through what i mean, what

i mean to say or say i mean. i mean

these mans and womans that don’t

mean to say i say what i mean to say

have tipped the communicative playing

field in favor of his and her

ego, in favor of believing i mean

to say something other than what i

mean to say. what i mean to say i mean,

i mean, i mean i think, or what i mean

to say is i think the acting out

of saying what i mean to say is a

perfect act. i think and what i mean

to say is what i mean to say appears

like a ghost voice on a recording

device as if from out of nowhere.

what i mean to say gets enacted

and emerges in what i say i mean about

what i mean to say and what i mean

to say is these mans or womans cannot

possibly think, what i mean to say

is, cannot possibly think what i mean

to say is something other than what

i mean to say or of what i mean

to say as expressed in word or deed

ought to mean. what i mean to say

and not, i mean, what some mans

or womans means to say i mean. i mean

what gives that he or she the right

to say that what i mean to say is anything

other than what i mean to say i mean.

i mean, considering a discrepancy

between what i mean to say and mean

and what some man or woman thinks

or interprets about what i mean to say i

mean makes me so angry and frustrated,

which is unwholesome, i mean, my anger

prevents me from acting out what i

mean to say. i mean i want to rid

the world of the potential mans

and womans who say what i mean to say

i mean differs from what i truly mean

to say i mean because, i mean, in this

way it is possible to once and for all

mean what i mean to say in emergent

thought and word and deed, finally.

what i mean to say is i will then not

hesitate or waiver to say what i mean

to say for fear because then when

i say what i mean to say it will be said

in such a way that what i say i mean

to say will really, truly be what i

mean to say and mean without hesitation,

counterpoint, misinterpretation or dispute

until what i mean to say differs

from what i mean and say, at which point

i will have to refute what i said

i meant to say by what i mean to say

about what i meant to say and said

and meant, which will become gospelized,

eliminating of course, those mans

and womans who say that what i mean

to say about what i meant to say

and said differs from what they mean,

what they say and what they mean

to say about what i have said

and meant, or say and mean, and then

what i mean to say and mean about

the changes to what i have meant

to say, meant and said, will become gospelized,

overflowing, i mean, with the absolute

truth of what i mean to say that is until

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